I let my emotions push me and give me a nudge over the edge..
I didn’t realise how much I am gonna lose. My friends, my office, my home, Imperial Hotel, Jinhold Apartment, the places I lived. Lalapan with Morris Ting at Labuan de Cafe, daily progress meeting at ECS office, hang around at Cherry Berries, Balcony, Agogo, Chaplin, just to name a few.. Everyone said that I am not losing these things, that they will still be here but thats the whole point. They will be here and I won’t. And as time went on I was just getting more and more scared of leaving. I don’t want to go! Yes, i dont want to go..
But.. its OK..
10th January 2010, 16.15hrs flight MH1286 departed from Miri Airport.. I knew the time has come for me to leave.
Entah lah.. aku tak tau nak cerita apa lagi. As I said earlier I love my company, I love my position and I love my salary (wow!) tapi tak mengapalah aku pejam mata, ikut kata hati.. aku quit.
Sedih, bukan tak sedih. Sayu pun ada. Aku suka kan kedamaian sebelah East ni, dari Labuan tempat bermula segalanya, hingga ke Kundasang melihat keindahan Gunung Kinabalu, kaum Kadazan Dusun, Keningau, Kota Kinabalu, meeting di Shell Kota Belud.. menyusuri South China Sea visit to Ajang Hormat. Kemudian terpaksa ditransfer ke Miri. Hidup di tempat yang asing..
Mula-mula memang tak suka pun Sarawak ni, panas, ganas dan entahlah.. aku rasa nak balik ke Semenanjung cari kerja lain jer.. tapi dah lama tu rasa happy pulak. Walaupun hari-hari kena screw kena fuck dengan Shell atau dengan management sendiri, aku rasa itu biasa. Kerja memang macam tu, apatah lagi kerja dengan oil and gas ni. Aku dah biasa. Aku happy live di sini, namum jeritan anak-anak membuatkan aku jadi tak tentu arah. Hero kecik tu baru setahun 2 bulan, tak sempat aku tengok dia mula-mula nak bertatih. Yang sulong darjah 1, payah juga Ummi dia nak handle semua itu. Kasihan juga.
Stress. Stress bro.. kerja boleh jadi screw-up kalau fikir pasal ni. Nak import anak bini rasanya dah takde maknanya lagi dah, kalau awal-awal dulu dapat transfer letter boleh jugak buat itu ini, ini dah anak-anak dah masuk sekolah dan banyaklah hal lain yang tak bleh aku nyatakan di sini.. so aku buat keputusan mengejut, aku resigned jer walaupun aku masih belum ada apa-apa news dari company lain..
Banyak benda ler yang aku tak sempat nak lakukan di sini, aku nak jelajah Sabah, aku nak jelajah sampai ke Longpasia di Sarawak tengok kehidupan kaum di sana. Aku nak kenal ethnic Penan, Limbawang, Momogun Rungus, Tombonuo dan lain-lain. Aku tak sempat ke Sandakan, Kudat tip of Borneo, Bario dan Mulu.
Baru je nak belajar bahasa Bidayuh, baru nak hafal perkataan Iban, baru je nak berkenalan dengan officemates.. baru je nak kenal-kenal ..
Its OK..
Time has come.. i gotto go. I will leave you my best friends Morris Ting, Jo Ann, Leena, Karie.. you may have left my life, but you will never leave my heart. Piwettt..!! Adik kecik Faridah dan Siti Faridah, aku dah resigned baru nak bercakap dengan aku..
Thanks for being my best friend, my friends, my best PM, my best bla bla bla..
Thanks for da farewell party, farewell lunch, farewell dinner, farewell drink etc
Thanks for the sourvenir Rossa, Shawalina and sis Laila. Adi, Nadzri, Miss Lam.. thanks for the hugs and tears my friend at the airport.. gezzzzz.. Morris i know you’re cried.. gezzzz you’re gay mannn..
Dont say good bye..
And so my adventure has ended, and I am back in Kemaman now.. Slowly falling back to ground, slowly realising the new reality I am part of, and slowly letting my other reality to become a memory rather than a life.
I am quite sad to be back because I really really enjoyed my time in Miri. I enjoyed my work and I loved the people and relationships that I built up over the past 6 months. In saying that, I am glad to be back in Kemaman because there are my kids and my wife..
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Welcome home bro….
thank you Fasha..
Dah nak resign ? anyway… still blogging ye..dont stop writing
i love to read …
happy home !
Rynz .. dah resigned dah pun..
If you leave me now, you’ll take away the biggest part of me
please don’t go
And if you leave me now, you’ll take away the very heart of me
please don’t go
Yus how could you leave me?
I wanted to know!
And did you know that I loved you so much?
gezzzz.. ni jantan kabaret mana pulak menggatal dengan aku nih.. check IP sama jer..
ello eddyra,
saya graduate nak cari kerja kat offshore or onshore..bru abis electrical (electronic) engineering ngan attend safety and health officer course?lei tau kat mane saya boleh apply?
Bro, u give me an inspiration…tabik la bro….apa pun jangan bersedih, baca buku jangan bersedih (la tahzan), dlm buku tu cakap jangan risau tentang masa depan,yakin dengan rezeki Allah….Good Luck…
well.. thanks dude.. insyallah i will be OK after this.. Cuma badi Miri tu masih ada kut hahaha..
cedih lak sy bace post enche eddy ni, just remembered my last time with my frens mase study dulu… huhu.. n im da one yang nangis paling manyak.. huhu.. cedih2…anyway enche eddy, rezeki ade dimane2, dh ditetapkan utk kite, cume lambat or cepat je.. enche eddy jgn risau k.. InsyaAllah ade la nanti… gud luck..
U back home bro…
[quote comment="10168"]gezzzz.. ni jantan kabaret mana pulak menggatal dengan aku nih.. check IP sama jer..[/quote]
Rmi tol peminat en eddyra…hahaha
[quote comment="10168"]gezzzz.. ni jantan kabaret mana pulak menggatal dengan aku nih.. check IP sama jer..[/quote]
jantan ke??? becareful… can hurt someone!
sedey tol la! lama jugak nk menghilangkan sendu sedan tuh! xpe… dirumah yg menunggu lagi important than everything.. rezeki dimana2 pon ada enche eddy…betul la lea
where’s fatiah..miss u so much!
bro,3 last entries ni btol2 bagi efek yg m’dalam..
bak pepatah omputih tuh i put myself in ur shoes..
tp rileks bro,rezeki tu ada dimana2.. ur wife n ur kids needs u more okay eventhough sang isteri tu sgt memahami orgnye, tp perit dlm hati die sape yg tau dun stop blogging.. i am supporting u from far.. peace!
all the BEST bro ! experience is the best teacher , i know u will cherish the moments there. it’s been emotional for me ( walaupun hanya sekadar reader… heheheheh)
Jaja..
jiwang jugak jaja ni deh.. sentimentel gitew..
[quote comment="10182"]bro,3 last entries ni btol2 bagi efek yg m’dalam..
bak pepatah omputih tuh i put myself in ur shoes..
tp rileks bro,rezeki tu ada dimana2.. ur wife n ur kids needs u more okay eventhough sang isteri tu sgt memahami orgnye, tp perit dlm hati die sape yg tau dun stop blogging.. i am supporting u from far.. peace![/quote]
terima kasih di atas morale support.. life is always like this orkid.. face it. Thanks.
[quote comment="10180"]sedey tol la! lama jugak nk menghilangkan sendu sedan tuh! xpe… dirumah yg menunggu lagi important than everything.. rezeki dimana2 pon ada enche eddy…betul la lea[/quote]
smartebiz.. gini lah.. bila relationship and frienship dihargai.. sedih la jugak kan..
[quote comment="10178"][quote comment="10168"]gezzzz.. ni jantan kabaret mana pulak menggatal dengan aku nih.. check IP sama jer..[/quote]
Rmi tol peminat en eddyra…hahaha[/quote]
biasalaha artis.. wife aku jugak yang makan hati heheheh..
[quote comment="10177"]U back home bro…[/quote]
ya sis.. already home.. thanks for da sarawak t-shirt and the ceramic instrument tu.. gezzz you really the best sis..
[quote comment="10176"]cedih lak sy bace post enche eddy ni, just remembered my last time with my frens mase study dulu… huhu.. n im da one yang nangis paling manyak.. huhu.. cedih2…anyway enche eddy, rezeki ade dimane2, dh ditetapkan utk kite, cume lambat or cepat je.. enche eddy jgn risau k.. InsyaAllah ade la nanti… gud luck..[/quote]
amik masa gak ni.. 1-2 week baru bak to normal ni hehehe.. karat betul ler aku ni…
Bro,
Kadang2 perkara yg kita suka itu tidak elok utk kita…dan perkara yg kita sedih/x suka itu sbenarnya yg baik utk kita..
Xpe bro..mber2 kt miri leh kontek lg apa…anak2 tu perlukan kasih syg bro tu..
Bleh ar jumpa kat kemaman nih..
welcome home bro..
all the best in watever u do..but please dont stop blogging…
wpun sy x suka menulis blog tp sy suka bc blog orang.
blog ni mmg ada dlm Favorites list… ((^_^))
[quote comment="10186"]Jaja..
jiwang jugak jaja ni deh.. sentimentel gitew..[/quote]
~ hehehe , *blushing *…mmg sker reading ur blog.. =)
Hi Bro, saya doakan terbaik buat Bro & keluarga.
bro mandiawan..
terima kasih..
huk aloh…sedey karatz ker bro ??? appa ni bro, lu tak macho la…
rilek la…duk ngan anak binik lagi besh bro…when all is gone with the wind, your kids n your woman will stick up for you, trust me…
all the best bro…
Bro Edy…
Nasib kita mungkin serupa bro…tp aku still kije lg.
Duk menghitung hari dan masa je.
Nak balik kije kertih @ kemaman la pulok.
Haih Bro Eddy aku lgi la sdey skrg..
just meet with one pkeja offshore..ngaku diri bujang but terkantoi dah kwin 2 bln..
haiyaa ksian la bini kat rmh..si laki bergelumang dgn scndal..
Sedih lah pulak. apa2 pun good luck
Aku rse klo bro eddyra ni jadi calon utk election confirm menang…ramai giler supporter…caya la bro…sy pon pangkah bro gak
[quote comment="10191"][quote comment="10176"]cedih lak sy bace post enche eddy ni, just remembered my last time with my frens mase study dulu… huhu.. n im da one yang nangis paling manyak.. huhu.. cedih2…anyway enche eddy, rezeki ade dimane2, dh ditetapkan utk kite, cume lambat or cepat je.. enche eddy jgn risau k.. InsyaAllah ade la nanti… gud luck..[/quote]
amik masa gak ni.. 1-2 week baru bak to normal ni hehehe.. karat betul ler aku ni…[/quote]
tak ape enche eddy..time is the best cure in our life..;)