I cant sleep again. Its 03:35am and I am still not sleepy. So I am here blogging.

Every night during fasting month for the past 10 year is the same thing. Lay in the bed at 12 am up till 3 am…maybe 4 am and then wake up at 5.00am for sahur. I could only feel sleepy after sahur. During the day I can fall asleep in maybe half an hour, but at night I cant shut my head off.

I cant sleep like a normal person. Either I couldn’t get sleep or wake up too early. If I fall asleep at 10pm I will wake up somewhere between 2 am and 3 am. I hate when people tell me that it’s not hard to sleep, just close your eyes and fall asleep. But I can’t, no matter whether I actively try to sleep or if I just lay there for hours.

My wife has no trouble sleeping, shes out when she hits the pillow, she wakes refreshed and renewed and I barely crawl out of bed. I wake with severe headaches and they last countless hours. It really make me so tired and I can’t do a good job at work.

I’ve been using sleeping pill but sometimes I am still up till 2am. If I take more I cant go to work. So how..

Everything will be OK after raya.. zzzzzz.